Rest in Silence: When the Old Self Dissolves

There is a phase on the path that isn’t awakening, healing, or clarity. We go through all of them, all the time! But there is also something deeper:

It’s obscurity.

The fog. The loss of reference points (or loss of self)

The feeling that the old self no longer fits, and the new one hasn’t arrived. You know.. the gap. But this one doesn't have to be so serious 🤓

In Gene Keys language, this is Gene Key 11 in the Shadow of Obscurity.

In alchemy, it’s the nigredo.

In psychological terms, it’s an ego death - the dismantling of meaning, identity, and orientation. Very uncomfortable.

Most spaces either:

• romanticize this phase

• pathologize it

• or rush people through it

This session does neither. That is the plan at least :)

Rest in Silence is a grounded, trauma-informed space for learning how to hold ego death - without dissociation, bypassing, or forcing insight.

We work with:

• Silence as a biological and psychological stabilizer

• the nervous system’s response to identity loss

• parts that panic when certainty dissolves

• and the intelligence that emerges when nothing needs to be fixed

This is not about achieving ego death.

It’s about learning how to stay present when the ego is already dissolving.

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What We’ll Explore:

• What ego death actually is (and what it isn’t)

• Gene Key 11: Obscurity → Idealism → Light

• Why not-knowing feels unsafe to the nervous system

• The difference between presence and dissociation

• How Silence stabilizes identity collapse

• How to hold the fog without rushing clarity

• Why insight often comes after rest, not effort

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What This Space Is:

✔ Trauma-informed

✔ Nervous-system aware

✔ Non-pathologizing

✔ Grounded spirituality

✔ Slow, spacious, and human

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What This Space Is Not:

✘ Not therapy

✘ Not a psychedelic or induced ego-death experience

✘ Not manifesting or “raising your vibration”

✘ Not about fixing or transcending yourself

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Who This Is For:

• You feel like your old identity is dissolving

• You’re in a foggy, in-between phase

• Clarity hasn’t arrived .... and that scares you

• You’ve outgrown your old frameworks

• You want grounding, not more concepts

• You’re tired of being told to “just trust the process”

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What You’ll Leave With:

• A felt sense of stability in not-knowing

• Less fear around ego death and identity loss

• A clearer relationship with obscurity

• Language for what you’re experiencing

• A direct experience of Silence as support

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Facilitator Note: I am not a therapist, and this is not clinical treatment.

I work at the intersection of nervous system awareness, parts-based understanding, silence, and symbolic frameworks like the Gene Keys -> not to tell you who you are, but to help you remain present while identity reorganizes.