When Katrina Goldsaito met her crying newborn sister, she climbed up onto the hospital bed and said, “Don’t cry, Emily.” Her baby sister stopped crying, and the name stuck. Emily killed herself 27 years later, and in the 13 years since, Katrina could not stop writing a book about her death that was maybe never a book at all. Maybe it was a story meant to be sewn out of lettuce. Or a book with spores in its leaves, so that after reading, you bury the pages and it is returned to the earth, sprouting mysterious plants. Maybe the book is a boulder inside of a book.
Katrina has never read all the text aloud. And wondered with her friend Emily Orling if reading it to an audience would free herself from the story or even free the story itself. Maybe the story wants to be read.
Maybe reading it aloud is the only way to move the boulder.
Katrina’s story is, at its heart, about “bearing the unbearable body.” It tells what happens when faced with The Worst Thing, and how we can hold aliveness next to the most unbelievable loss.
https://katrina.goldsaito.com/
http://emilyorling.com
http://cesaralvarez.net
http://spiritsgoblah.com
This performance contains detailed discussions of suicide and grief
